Life is still worth living!
It was cold and the whole world was so silent. It was 2:44 in the morning and still, I couldn’t get any sleep. My mind seems to be boundless. What was I thinking? I told myself. A different personality, as most people who knew me would say. I am much aware of the people in judging my characters; they say that I am much different as compared to those of my age bracket or to those little years older than me.
Different or strange, I whispered. Could it be that I still let myself held captive by my past? If that’s the case, then I’d kneel in front of my oppressors rather than having my font of hope to be demolished. But I won’t allow them to do so. I took my blanket off me, and walked towards the comfort room. I washed my face, and look at the mirror asking myself, “Do you really know who you are?”
Foolish as it seemed to be, I regret what I’ve said; after all, we knew ourselves better among others. I went back to bed. Looking at the ceiling, I wonder what my life would be in the near future. I really want to graduate and become a successful person. I kept thinking of the careers which I will have to pursue. I want to become an Information Technology specialist, a Web Developer, and a teacher; however, I’ve been always keeping in mind that formal education is essential in achieving my goals.
Time slipped by so fast. The night seemed to be endless as I checked the time from my cell phone. It’s 3:26 in the morning. I said to myself; my neighbors are asleep while I’m still awake—not because I work at an office just like my mother, but rather my mind was restless. Ever since, it was my mama who raised me alone. I haven’t seen my father. I think the last time that we’re together is when I’m still an infant. My father died early, when I was 1 year old. My mama said he died because of a colon cancer. I really can’t remember his face, the only memory he left was this picture I am holding now. It was me when I was still a baby, my papa and my mama; it was our family picture indeed! Long after my father died, my mother married another man, and now I have a step father and a step brother. I never regret anything in my life; after all I know all of this has its own purpose. Leaning my back against the frigid wall, I imagined and asked myself, if my papa was still here with us now; would I still be the same person as I am today?
As an only child, grown up without the presence of a father; I don’t consider my state as a nuisance. Though its quiet sad, but I admit, this is my fate. This is what GOD wants me to be, I know He has a good reason why is this all happens, and I know that He has a better plan for me. Even if I wasn’t given the opportunity to be nurtured by my father, God gave me my treasured friends and relatives who gives their comforts whenever I needed it; He has given me the best Mother in the whole wide world who’s willing to give her unconditional love and support, willing to give everything for me; He has given me the knowledge and talents that I must be proud of. And it was then that I’ve closed my eyes. Before I completely fall asleep, I come up with my realization – life is still worth living! With a smile on my face, I went back to bed and sleep.
i must admit you write well karen. that’s nice.
just to affirm you, Yes, God has a brilliant plan for all of us. we may not see it now but soon we will as long as we keep our hearts and senses open to and for what ever possibilities that may come.
and thinking or acting differently among your peers is not a strange thing at all. its an evidence that you have grown ahead of them and that is good. it means you learned and experienced more than them.
this will certainly help you weight things up, in short, better understanding of life and good/reasonable judgment.
hope you’ll continue growing. and do always entertain wisdom, for it is wisdom that gives wings to knowledge.
take care.
Comment by ricoi — May 20, 2008 @ 1:17 am
well then, i wanna say thank you for the compliment…
I’m happy that you’ve read the whole article
and you kinda relate on it…
thank you for your advices..
i do really appreciate it…
take care! GOD BLESS!
Comment by kAreN — May 20, 2008 @ 4:09 pm
hai karen ….nabasa jud nako ….spechless ko duh ….hehe ..uki lng na karen …dli na hadlang sa imu mga pangarap ..look at u nw ???..swerte japun ka coz ur living hapily with ur mama …even u grow without ur tru father di ka naiiba sa lahat karen …this all are in God’s plan ….dont stop hoping
...naa lng me sa kiliran pra suportahan ka ..hehe
Comment by michael — May 20, 2008 @ 4:17 pm
hello michael..thank you kc binasa mo yung whole article..thank you for all the times that you supported me..grabe jud au..full support au ka sa ako..heheh..!..tnx pud for alwayz been there for me as a friend..! take car..GOD BLESS..
Comment by kAreN — May 20, 2008 @ 6:14 pm
your welcome …..hehehehe
Comment by michael — June 11, 2008 @ 4:07 am