Don’t Worry, Be Happy!

Parang naiintindihan ko na.

O ito lang ang gusto kong isipin.

Ayaw mo kong masaktan. Ayaw mong makita akong malungkot. Pero ayaw mo rin sa ‘kin. O sige, correction… hindi mo kayang maging kung anong gusto kong maging ka sa buhay ko. Quote na lang kaya kita? Sorry.. *****, hindi ko kayang maging ganoon sa’ yo.

Ikaw naman kasi. Bakit mo pa ba kailangang sabihing gusto mong isauli ‘yung sulat na binigay ko sa ‘yo noong umamin ako? Bakit mo pa sinabing nalulungkot ka tuwing babasahin mo yon? Bakit mo pa sinabing naaawa ka sa ‘kin?

Ako naman kasi. Bakit ko pa kailangang i-prove kung bakit ka naaawa sa kin? Bakit ba pa kita binigyan ng sulat na magpapalungkot sa ‘yo eh ayaw ko din namang nakikitang malungkot ka. Bakit ko ba ‘to ginawa sa friendship natin? Bat ba kasi ang hirap-hirap na hindi umasa?

Ikaw kasi ulit eh. Nung sinabi ko sa ‘yo na nagkakaganito na ‘ko, na may symptoms na ko kaya lumayo ka na, ayaw mo namang lumayo. ‘Yan tuloy, yung ideya na kahit na alam mo na, nakikipag-close ka pa din sa ‘kin, led me on. Masama nga raw mag-expect pero ang hirap hindi eh. Paano ba gawin yung wag isiping baka may nararamdaman din sa ‘yo ang isang taong lapit pa rin nang lapit kahit alam na niya kung anong nangyayari sa ‘yo tuwing andyan siya?

O sige. Ako kasi ulit. Hindi pa ‘ko nasanay. Ilang beses ko ba kailangang dumaan sa ganito? I mean, alam mo yung mga nakaraan ko. Kaya nga ang sagot mo kung bakit ka naaawa sa ‘kin eh dahil pagkatapos nung mga yon, hindi mo inisip na ‘yun din pala magagawa mo. Na paiyakin ako. Pero hindi mo gusto. Alam ko yon. Alam ko mahal mo ‘ko. Hindi nga lang sa paraang gusto ko.

Natatandaan mo pa ba nung iniyakan mo pa yung kaibigan ko? Sabi ko sa ‘yo, you don’t always get what you want but you’ll definitely get what you deserve. Nakakainis, ipapayo ko yun sa sarili ko. For the nth time. Pero di ba sasaya din ako? Hindi pala. Sasaya din ako! Hindi nga lang siguro sa iyo, pero I’ll get what I deserve. Hindi naman ako masamang tao kaya siguro may magandang naghihintay para sa akin. Sana sigurado. At yun na lang ang iisipin ko ‘no?

Tama. Ayaw mo kong masaktan. Ayaw mo kong malungkot. Pero hindi mo kayang maging kung anong gusto kong maging ka sa buhay ko. Alam mong nasasaktan ako ngayon pero alam mong mas mabuti ‘to kesa sumulong tayo sa lebel na hindi para sa ‘tin kung saan baka mas lalo pa tayong magkasakitan.

So parang naiintindihan ko na nga. Hindi mo kasalanan. Hindi ko kasalanan. Walang may kasalanan. Lesson ‘to. Experience. I’m just glad I’m going through this with you.

Okay lang naman siguro kung medyo weird ako for a while ‘no? Ayoko pa ring iwanan yung pagkakaibigan natin. It’s the best gift you’ve ever given me. And if only for that, I’d be honored to go back to being your old normal friend.

Sana pagbalik ko, andyan ka pa din. Tapos isang araw, pag-uusapan natin ‘to, tatawa na lang tayo. Darating din ‘yung isang araw.

So dyan ka lang. Babalik din ako.

At gusto kong isipin: Naiintindihan mo din.

“I can’t say ‘screw him’ to the guy that I have come the closest to being fully in love with. I still would do anything for him and it sucks because I know he wouldn’t do the same for me. That hurts more than anything, but I just can’t stop loving him, believe me I’ve tried.”

This is for the broken hearted. I know how you feel. Empty, betrayed, and no happiness whatsoever. You don’t want to laugh, because you know it’s not going to help, but you don’t want to cry, because it will just make you feel worse. You feel like your heart is falling apart, but not only that, but you know soon your life is going to feel like it’s falling apart too. You don’t think it will ever end, and no matter what this person has done to you, it feels impossible to stop loving them. And everyone wonders why if they have hurt you so much, then why do you still love them. That’s the confusing part, you don’t know why, you just do, and the people who hurt you the most, and normally the ones you love the most. And then, after a few weeks, you finally feel a sense of relief, like you’re getting happy again, but you know inside that you’re just going into denial. And after a few more weeks, you’re back to where you were an empty soul and teary eyes. You thought you got over them, but really, you just stopped showing it. And you can’t help but to show it again. It leaves deep scars on your heart that are there forever. And no one understands how you feel, and how deep you are hurt, no matter who they are, because it hasn’t happened to them And even if it has, every broken heart is different. They don’t know the true pain you feel and carry each and everyday now, so you learn that basically you are alone with all this. And the feeling starts to overwhelm you, and suddenly you just break down, right there, because you know you’ve had enough, the tears just instantly start flowing, and you’re to the point where you don’t care who see’s. Because you’ve spent so many nights lying awake in bed, and so many days being haunted by the scars and fear of rejection. And in the midst of all these tears, you know that its not helping any, and it’s not going to bring them back, if you ever even had them in the first place. After about a million tears have been cried, you finally pull yourself back together and keep going. Your throat starts to clench and your eyes burn with the tears you are trying to hold back. Everyone says, "It will be okay…” But you know it won’t. And that’s the truth, it won’t. And you look back on all of the hurt you had from this, and you realize that people are horrible. You’re still hurt, but you’ve learned to hide it so that everyone thinks you are okay. So now every time you see this person, you know you still love them, and you feel a slight tingle in your heart yearning for them to love you, screaming out, but for some reason they don’t hear it. And then you sit back and wonder how one person could have caused all of this…

Do thoughts of your ex fill your mind every second of everyday? Does the mere mention of your ex’s name tie your stomach into a huge, painful knot? Do you get that sinking, elevator feeling in your heart every time you think about him? Do you think you’ll never feel better again? If you answered yes to any of these questions, then good! At least I know that I am not alone…heheh..

I had a break – up experience with a certain boy who was once my boyfriend (obvious bah?). for any other reason as well, we broke up maybe because were not really for each other or should I say misunderstanding! . I said, I don’t like to think of it as misunderstanding or whaterver! I like to think of it as Investigative Cleaning!..nyahahah..

5. Hindi ka makatitig sa taong GUSTO mo, pero hindi maalis ang mga mata mo sa taong MAHAL mo.
*** yan ang unang unang mapapansin mo, dahil sa totoo lang halos hindi mo kayang tignan ng matagal ang taong gusto mo pero tuwang-tuwa ka naman tuwing tititigan mo ang taong mahal mo.

4. Kapag umiiyak ang taong GUSTO mo, aaluhin mo siya pero kapag MAHAL mo ang umiiyak, hindi mo napapansin na maging ikaw sa sarili mo ay umiiyak din.
*** kadalasan kasi kapag nakikita nating down ang taong gusto natin we will do anything just to brighten their feelings pero pansinin ninyo na kapag yung’ taong napakahalaga at mahal natin ang nasasaktan ramdam na ramdam din natin.

3. Nahihiya ka sa harap ng GUSTO mo pero kapag nasa harap ka ng taong MAHAL mo natural lang lahat ng kilos mo.
***pansin na pansin din to’ kasi kapag gusto natin ang isang tao we give our best foot forward para magpa-impress pero kapag nasa tabi na tayo ng taong mahal natin kahit na magmukha tayong tanga parang ayos na ayos lang lalo na’t para sa kanila ang ginagawa natin [am I right?]

2. Kapag ikaw naman ang tinitignan at tinititigan ng taong GUSTO mo magba-blush ka pero kapag yung taong mahal mo ang makikita mong nakatitig ‘sayo mapapangiti ka sa sobrang kakiligan.
***aminin ninyo, pansin na pansin naman diba, na kapag ‘yung crush o ‘yung gusto natin ang nakatingin may blush pero kapag ‘yung taong mahal natin hindi lang blush, nandyan pa yung mapapangiti ka na lang ng hindi mo napapansin.

1. kapag nagyaya yung taong GUSTO mo papayag kang sumama pero kapag MAHAL mo ikaw mismo ang gagawa ng paraan para makasama siya.
***ang pinaka matinding pangitain kung mahal mo ang isang tao ay kung ikaw na mismo ang gumagawa at nagiisip ng paraan para maextend ang pagsasama niyo.

The "parang kayo, pero hindi" stage…others call it MU or mutual understanding. Pseudo-boyfriend, pseudo-girlfriend, pseudo-relationships. Almost like a relationship, but not quite. It is a phase where the persons involved are more than friends, but not quite lovers. Pwedeng naay verbal agreement, pwede pud wala. One or both of you may have admitted your feelings, posible pud nga wala. You just let your gestures do the talking for you. Walang formal courtship na nangyari! Pero the way mo mag – act, sa inyong mga gina-sulti, parang kayo, pero hindi.

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It’s over. He’s gone. Why do we have to part while the love is still there? Why do we have to suffer? Why do we have to cry when someone bids goodbye? Why do beginnings have an end? Why do we have to meet only to loose in the end?

In a relationship, one of the hardest things to do is saying goodbye and letting go. It is as hard as breaking a crystal because you’ll never know when you will be able to pick up the pieces again. More often than not, they who go, feel not the pain of parting. It is they who stay behind that suffer, because they are left with memories of a love that was meant to be, a love that was.

At the beginning and at the end of a relationship, we are embarrassed to find ourselves alone. Unfair as it may seem, but that’s the way love goes. That’s the drama, the bittersweet and the risk of falling in love. After all, nothing is constant but change. Everything will eventually come to its end, without us knowing when, without us knowing how, without us knowing why. And we must forgive not because we want to but because we have to.

In letting go, sorrows come not in a single spy but in battalion. It seems that everywhere you go, everything you do, every song you hear, every turn of your head, every move of your body, every beat of your heart, every blink of your eye and every breath you take always remind you of him. It’s like a stab of a knife, a torture in the night; funny how the whole world becomes depopulated when only one person is missing. Just imagine there are billions of people on earth. And yet it seems you feel empty without the other. I don’t know if it’s worth calling an art, but letting go entails special skills sparkle with a considerable skills and time. Time heals all wound but it would take a little push on our part. Acceptance plays a part. Not all wishes come true. Not all love stories end with “AND THEY LIVE HAPPILY EVER AFTER.”

Sometimes we have to part because of circumstances beyond our control. We have to suffer if it would mean happiness for others. We have to cry to temporarily let go of pains. Every beginning has its end, like every dawn has its dusk. It’s something we can’t control, something we have to live up.

1.  We love when you cuddle with us.
2. A kiss on the chick is a definite yes.
3. We want you to put your arm around us at the movies.
4. We don’t care if you are the strongest guy in the world.
5. Size doesn’t matter so don’t tell us.
6. We don’t always look our best so get over it.
7. We shouldn’t have to plan everything.
8. Were always ready to talk so call us.
9. Were not perfect so deal with it.
10. We love surprises.
11. The little things you do mean the most.
12. Were not always girly gins.
13. We can like boy stuff too.
14. Cursing and fighting don’t impress us.
15.Don’t be mean to us to get our attention.
16. Don’t tell us who is not because we don’t care.
17. We can tell when you’re not listening so listen up.
18. When we say we are cold that’s our invitation to come closer.
19. Hugs mean more sometimes.
20. We need your advice sometimes so don’t be afraid to give it to us.

Love makes the world go round. That’s what a lot of people say. And it’s probably true. Love is a very complicated word. Its definition fluctuates from one person to another. It could vary depending on the situation. And it could never, ever be the same. That I’ve proven because every love story differs.

Some say true love is when everything is perfect. When you are “truly” in love, everything falls into place. For me, it’s not exactly true. Two people could be in a very difficult position but truly love each other. Maybe eventually things will fall into place but factors may condemn the relationship considering the circumstances around them. Marriage can prove my statement. In marriage, love is not a necessity. Marriage and love are totally different things. One can marry someone else for social security or for any other reason. Some say you have to think about the future in marriage. And plenty consider love as a consideration at that point. You have to mull over other factors in life. So you can’t just live with just love, to marry just because of love for that matter. There’s your financial problems, medical problems, educational problems and the list goes on. Some say true love conquers all. This may be true at some point. But living in a cruel world such as ours, it is quite difficult to live with just love.

My description of love is not exactly being happy, but being happy because you make someone else happy. To love is to feel exhilarated whenever you are with that someone else, whether be it your mom, dad, siblings, your “better half,” or anybody else. Your ways of doing this may vary but nevertheless its purpose is the same. I think money makes the world go round but love gives harmony to everything else. People, like me, who try to define love journeys an impossible path. An endless struggle because nobody can actually define it, I guess.

So what is love? I really can’t answer that. But one thing’s for sure that i strongly believe, "love isn’t love if only one person feels it."

Crushes and infatuations are just natural. Those kilig moments and the pa tweet-tums that we have experienced! Let’s say, it’s just a part of growing up! I guess, all of us, all people in the world experienced how it was to feel a tingling sensation at least once in our lives.  Back in my high school days, I myself feel a kilig moment…kilig of just seeing that only one person…  hahaha…I know I may sound funny but there’s this one crush of mine that influenced me a lot. Because of him I’ve made a poem! A poem that I wasn’t really expected to be made. I’ve just made it, I don’t know why and how… Anyways, I want to share it with you the poem that I myself have made…

read on…

If You Only Knew

At the very first time I saw you,
I hate everything you do,
I also hate the way you are
because you’re a hindrance like a bar

I don’t know what’s the reason behind
Maybe at that time I was just a blind
This feeling of hatred didn’t last
As the time fasses fast

Now that I’m fallin’ in-love with you
I hope that you feel the same way too
I believe to you that I’m in- love
Cause’ you fed my heart like a dove

I know that this feeling will be forever
And I pray that someday well’ be together
And there’s no need to write to this for you…
If You Only Knew.

There’s this guy, he’s my schoolmate and probably my classmate. Were not close actually and maybe I won’t considered him as one of my friends. You might be asking why? Dili man gud mi mag – tagad…kababawan kaayu diba?!..but I do know him; not because he was my schoolmate or classmate karon…but I just know him since then, when I was still in high school pa…this guy I am referring to is somewhat connected in my past.

There it goes…we have this common friend, I’ve just concluded that maybe this particular friend of ours gave my cell phone number to him. It just started in a simple text message, at first I hesitated, but then I managed to send him a reply on his texts. I entertained him because it was his text messages that made me guess of him as a nice person. Through texts we started to build our friendship, and later on he became my constant text mate.

In a short period of time that we have been text mates, he instantly becomes my boyfriend…yay!...diri jud siguro ang pinaka worst nga part I guess…wala gani ko kabalo kung unsa nagtulak sa ako para sug-ton s’ya sa cell phone lang!  – it’s just happen! parang ang dali lang yata ng mga pangyayari!..hahaiii…you might be thinking that I am the kind of girl na easy-to-get, well…I can’t blame you of thingking that…siguro…after all, in the first place its all my fault…but I tell you this – “he’s a kind of man that would make a woman easily lose her heart unto him.” And I guess it is his unique personality that made me fall for him. But then, wala jud nag dugay…days, weeks and months have passed…wala na s’ya nagtext sa ako!..wala ko kabalo kung naunsa na s’ya…it’s been so long since last s’ya nagtext ...so, wala na lang pud ko nag care na magtext sa iya…and without any reasons – unfortunately, since then, we’ve lost our communication.

I entered college and decided to forget all about him. And then, something strange happened, wala ko nag expect na pareho diay mi ug school...and worst – we are in the same department. At first, I told myself to just forget all that we have been through before, “tama na oie, past is past na baya…”  I’ve just been ignoring him, since that very first day that we’ve first met in the university. Whenever we crossed our paths in the hallway we don’t even care to take a simple hi/hello, parang wala lang! Just a glimpse! As if we don’t know each other…di ko nga alam kung kilala pa ba ako ng taong to’!

Actually, I wasn’t that attracted to him naman. But seems that they, I couldn’t help but check him out at the corners of my eyes. It seemed that, I’ve been starting to like him. So many times that I’ve been denying this to myself – hindi kasi pwede! I hate this…grrr…past is past naman dapat..! But what can I do?

GUYS out there, listen up! I have a special something for those who seem to be lost in the courtship maze. have you ever wondered why your Romeo styles arent effective enough to get your Juliet’s heart? Is your style romantic enough or just stupid? You may have the looks, the money and the guts – but do you  have the moves? They say prevention is better than cure, and so I would give you what moves you should not do. Read on and uncover the don’ts of getting the girl of your dreams.

DONT USE WEIRD PICK - UP LINES. It might work in other cultures, but not really in ours. Although these lines are catchy and funny, they are also so unreal and impersonal. It becomes more of a turn – off to girls than a plus point. These are the most well known pick – up lines:

1. "Do you believe in love at first sight, or should I walk by again and look at you the second time around?"
2. "Do you have a map? I just keep on getting lost in your eyes."
3. "You must be a hell of a theft because you stole my heart from across the room."
4. "Are you tired? Because you’ve been been running in my mind lately."
5. "Is you father a theft? he must have stolen the stars and put them in your eyes."
6. "Do you have a name, or can I call you mine?
7. "My head still hurts, because I just fell…in love!

DON’T INVENT A WHOLE NEW YOU JUST TO GET HER TO NOTICE YOU. Let the girl like you for who you really are. You wouldn’t want to lie you whole life, would you

Looking for the right one? Tired of finding someone? Uhmmm, you’ve got the right place here! Just relax and try this Love Game! Who knows! Just try, Nice ayoOoOo! Ha! ha! ha! Nakakatouch!